Category Archives: thoughts
An apology to the girl I used to be
When we were 8 you asked me to be a part of your life, you asked me to keep you safe from all harm, physical and emotional. I thought I was keeping you safe, coming out at any sign of … Continue reading
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The struggle of staying optimistic
I have this habit, which I’m sure everyone else has as well, of making all these grand plans when I’m happy, and then chickening out when I feel down. Just this morning I felt as if I was on top … Continue reading
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A new way of thinking
I think we all reach a point in our lives where we find ourselves holding onto the idea of change. This change you dream of may be a number of different things: your boyfriend to finally pop the question, perhaps … Continue reading
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A suicide note I’ll never use.. And why.
It’s my own fault I’m in this mess. I can think back to so many decisions I’ve made that got me here. Like that first cut, or that first handful of pills, or that first group home. There really is … Continue reading
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Dealing With Borderline Personality Disorder 
Home for a short while
For probably the fifth time tonight I make my way through the cultured kitchen and retreat into the back sun room. This isn’t my home but in here it may as well be. It’s a ritual at this point; I … Continue reading →